Life is tough!

The jongwork is totally unbearable. I've never had a day of holiday since 31/8. My sleeping hours have adjusted from 8 hours to 4. Only for contacting my advisors, I need to rush out of the lecture theatre every lesson answering their calls, spend 6 hours a day, 5 day a week communicating with them or their secreteries through phone calls and mails. the secreteries or advisors i've talked to is totally out of an 18-year-old-normal-student's level. The tension is not what I can imagine or bear. Of course I've thought about quitting. I think about it every single day. but i just can't leave my jongmates struggling, fulfilling my responsibilities. I'm going through the highest point of physical and mental pressure in my life this year. it's hard. I'm usually considered as a tough person but I just can't help but to cry to express my emotion all the time.

I need to stand strong! I need to struggle for myself and my jongmates and my jong! I need to be positive and not just think about how i'm suffering!

I can't let anybody, even myself worrying about myself. I may not do perfectly, my body may not even allow me to stay for a year but at least i try and learn. I will stay until i can't bear a bit more of it.

trust me, I'll at least try.